Fate! Can You Choose It!

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Do you follow logic or your heart? Are you confused or afraid about what you want in life? Are you thinking of a big house, money, saving lives, etc? Many people in the world never get what they want due to this confusing war between heart and mind.

Find out what you want in life. This is the hardest question. We always have a choice; follow our parents’ footsteps, or decide what we want for ourselves, it is hard and simple all at the same time, how? When we are young we say “I want to be a fireman, policeman, doctor” but as we grow older, the fate is changing already, paths are colliding, our minds are thinking to much on what is important, these days “happiness, money, commitments” but we never have time to plan our own paths, finding that one thing that will make us all eternally happy, sit down, read a paper, search the internet, find something that screams out to your personality, something that will make you cry happy tears and plan that path, that fate, your new life.

Set your goals. Every life has a plan, but our schedules are always so booked, even if you want to do a certain task of volunteering it messes up plans with friends or family. When you want to schedule the goals and set them out, you need to find a calming place to relax your own mind, in the park, in your bedroom, even with music that relaxes you will be beneficial for you to find a way to focus on what you want, then just write, type and plan, remember to add dates where you can find a set target to be able to knock down the goal and move forward down your path.

Don’t let obstructions stand in your way. We have many distractions in life. They could be time consuming work, homework, people literally standing in your way, family or friends dragging you down or not believing in you. All you need to do is improvise. How can you handle being put down and still move forward? How can you keep up with your work and still plan your path? Firstly, don’t let anyone drag you down, those who aren’t there for you do not deserve to be in your life. You need people who stand beside you, not behind or in front, but by your side, ready to help you take on any more distractions, true friends, family will believe in your because you are a loved one, a son/daughter, no matter what, unless you are brought up in the torn family where love is not available, but you can easily find people to take there place, a teacher or group of believing friends. Second, work is easy, the planning is hard, easily find the time to do both, multi-task, hard to learn but if you put your mind to it, you can accomplish a lot, ask for help, friends, family, let them do a bit of work, gives you a break and time to relax the mind and open to new ideas.

Always believe in yourself. These days people drag you down, but life is about enduring, do not let the negative take over your mind, you can be strong without them, you can stand in a circle alone and still know that there is someone believing in you, YOU, so longs as you believe in yourself, you can go through any obstacle in your path just to gain what you need in life, our path is not a want it is a need due to finding your internal and eternal happiness, imagine finally, your goal was to graduate as a biophysicist, and when you get given the document, you feel your heart and mind fulfilled, and then you plan some more known you can go further, the sky isn’t the limit, you can go further, the galaxy is vast. You will find supporters and believers during your travels.
Accomplish greatness you need. All steps can lead you to the path you choose, it isn’t all straight through, it is narrow, curved, thick and heavy with a lot of obstacles in the way, emotional and physical, but as humans we have the capacity to push and break through anything that is thrown at us, make our mind, body and soul complete with the happiness we all rightfully deserve, and nobody can take it away, nobody can tell us what we are meant to be, we are our own person, our heart beats in our own chest, not those who do not believe, we are the only one who believes in us when others don’t. Go forward, break through the barriers and good luck!

Hit The Bottom Of The Barrel! Start Your Life Again

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Be disgusted with your life now. Be sick of it! Ready to change. Never to look back! You need to be ready to put your old life behind you! OK ready to start? Then keep reading. No one can make you want to change your life but you. No one! If you really do want a new beginning read on.

Change the way you think. When you need to change everything about you and to completely start over in life you need to make some major adjustments between your ears. You need to think like a new person, act like a new person, dress like a new person, surround yourself with new people. You need to start thinking positively. Put away the I can’t, what ifs, and maybes and get down to the nitty gritty of changing your life.

Determine exactly who you want to be. What will you look like. What will you dress like? What will your relationship look like? Where will you live? What car are you driving? Take a good 15 minutes, close your eyes and really imagine the life you want down to what you feel like in that life. Take a good mental snapshot of your perfect life. You need to believe, without a shadow of a doubt that this person you envisioned will be you.

The second step is Major life housecleaning. To become a whole new person you may need to get rid of the same old people in your life that bring you down. You need to find the energy drainers in your life and get rid of them. Oh you know who they are. You know the friend that always creates drama. Your negative relative that is always putting you down or nay saying. What about your boyfriend/girlfriend/spouse. I know this is the hardest person to let go of, but if they cause you to cry, or make you feel bad about yourself, or cause you to feel horrible in any way, t is time to say goodbye. Some of the people that have I have spoke to that have went through this life changing process have told me they didn’t realize how much energy and happiness a person has stolen from you until you have let that person go and you regain your happiness back. If you are only with a person because you love them, not because they uplift or benefit you. If you do everything for them, and they do nothing for you. It is time so say goodbye. Take them out of your phone, FaceBook, etc. Quit contacting them. Drop them like a bad habit. They are bringing negative energy in your life and you don’t need that.

The third step is to get healthy. You can not be an optimal person if you have subpar health. It is time for a full head to toe physical. I know this may scare you. Or you may say you don’t have the money for it. You need to do it. There are health departments in every county of the US. If you don’t have insurance they operate on a sliding scale fee. There are free clinics as well. Be honest with your health care provider. Do you do drugs, or drink or smoke? They need to know. Request to have blood work done so you know your sugar, cholesterol, etc. You need to know everything about your body so if anything at all is wrong you can correct it. This was the hardest step for me to take. Why? Because I am terrified of them finding something wrong. I was certain just a few months ago when I found a lump in my breast that I had cancer. I finally, after much pushing from my husband, went and got everything checked and found I am in optimal health. Let me urge you, you cant fix your life if you are operating with a less than optimal body. GET A PHYSICAL!

Note: If you have an addiction it is time to come clean. If you really want to change your life it needs to stop now. I know it is not going to be easy. But life changing events are not easy. You must decide, no one else can do it for you. Do you want to keep living the horrible life you are or do you want to live the life you have dreamed of? You will never get a high like living the life you were meant to live. Call AA or NA. Put your bullshit reasons and excuses for not quitting aside. Hand your head for a minute in shame. Get over it. Make the call or ask your doctor where you can go to get help. Check yourself into a rehab if need be. You need to get all that nasty shit out of your system. You can not live a normal happy life when something else is controlling your life
The fourth step is to have a form of income so that you can have a cushion or emergency fund. This is not to pay bills right now or to buy something you want or need. This is to give you a solid foundation to start living your dreams. Yes you can do this even if your homeless! May it be a job or starting a little business. If you are reading this you have access to a computer so your better off than some out there. The average person needs a minimum of $3,000 in an emergency fund. YOU NEED THIS. You need to get this in an honest way. Anything you do dishonest will bring you back horrible results. You can earn it through a job even if its at McDonald’s. Put your pride away. Its useless, and hasn’t got you very far has it? You can earn it by washing cars, delivering newspapers, doing housekeeping for someone. You can also do recycling, affiliate marketing, or by having a garage sale. I will provide a whole list later in this blog of ways to make quick money. Do this to start your emergency fund! Not for any other reason. If you need to buy necessities, such as food or transportation or such put half the money you make away toward your emergency fund and do not spend it for any reason.

The fourth step is stability. If your life is chaotic you are probably not in a stable living environment. Do you move often? Live with friends or family in a less than supportive environment? You need your own place or if you live with someone else it needs to be a positive environment. If you have one great, but if you don’t this needs to be your objective. Even if it is in a studio apartment or HUD housing. You and your children if you have any need stability. What if you can’t afford it? There are programs out there to help you! Quit boo-hooing and get off your ass and make this happen! You are not a victim or broken anymore. Get done what you need to get done so you can put this bullshit life behind you and start living the life you want. You can find a responsible roommate to help split the bills if need be. Remember to screen this person well. You need to surround yourself with a positive people and have a positive environment. You will not get very far in life if you do not change your surroundings.

The fifth step is fixing your credit. Credit is very important. It is hard to get a good job or a nicer place when your credit sucks. With the downturn in the economy most people have sucky credit. It happens. Deal with it. Don’t fall for debt settlement or any scheme to get rid of debt. You can fix it on your own. If it is too bad you may need to file bankruptcy. Either way if you have bad credit you need to fix it. Time will heal a bankruptcy. I will make a page on here of ways to legally fix your credit for good. While your credit is being repaired you can work on other pressing aspects of you life.

The sixth step is appearance. When you look bad, you feel bad. Plain and simple. Do you need to lose weight? Maybe a hair cut or a few nice outfits. Even if you have to go the Goodwill. You need to look your best. When you do good things will come your way. You won’t get a good job or attract positive people in your life when you look like a bum. You will not be taken seriously or at the best you will be dismissed. Make yourself up! Be proud of the new you!

The seventh step is regular work. Apply for jobs. Any job that you think you can do. Apply for 30-40 jobs a day to start off with. Make finding a job your full time job right now. Use your computer for something good for once. Do you need a resume. There are several resume writing programs out there free that you may use. Go online and google sample resumes. Now that your emergency fund is well on its way you need to find a stable job or start your own business. Some of you may not be able to get a job due to your background or other reasons. That doesn’t mean that you can’t make an honest living. I will devote a whole page to jobs you can do at home, or that are entrepreneurial in nature that you can start now without much investment other than hard work.

Say No To Excess Alchohol (Use Anti-Craving Medicines) : Part 2

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Follow up with your doctor to report your progress. If you are doing well, s/he may want you to wean off the medication, or based on your feedback, may extend the prescription. If you’re not satisfied with the results or are suffering side effects, you may wish to consider changing the dose or using another anti-craving medicine.
Don’t be ashamed if you end up on the medication indefinitely. Just like diabetes, alcoholism is a chronic, often progressive, long-term disease which often requires pharmacological intervention. Now that scientists are beginning to decode the brain’s addictive pathways, they finally have a way to address receptors that result in craving.
Continue to integrate other important strategies into your program, particularly as you dose down from any medication. This includes nutrition, diet, exercise, dietary supplements, and positive visualization–to help maintain your healthy new lifestyle.
A number of medications are prescribed for alcohol craving and cessation. You can find a great deal of information at pharmacology websites, but do a search online for the “PI” (prescribing information) sheet for each one and you’ll find much more detail before speaking with your doctor. The medications most often prescribed to control craving typically include: Acamprosate, Baclofen, Naltrexone, Ondansetron, Revia, Rimonabant, Topiramate and Vivitrol.
Reward yourself for your accomplishments. Treat yourself when you reach a sobriety milestone (one day, one week, 30 days, three months, one year, etc.) And remember to not give up if you relapse. The road to recovery is not always straight and narrow.
Spirituality is often a very important component in achieving sobriety. In fact, it has been documented in clinical studies to be helpful for those who struggle with addiction. Whether you continue to follow a traditional religion or choose to explore new paths of enlightenment, the reflection and self awareness that result can be very powerful and meaningful in your quest for newfound health.
If you don’t have immediate or easy access to a medical library, search Google Scholar to find excellent abstracts from clinical journals about the medication/s in which you are interested.
Alternative treatments have become increasingly popular in addressing alcoholism. Do some research and consider adding acupuncture, EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique), hypnotherapy, therapeutic massage, or other approaches.
Subscribe to online blogs, newsletters and websites that push information out about new developments in addiction research. It’s important you become an advocate in your own health plan. Often patients are as well informed about new developments as the physicians who treat them!
Don’t assume a “magic pill” will fix your drinking problem. Alcohol dependence is a serious and complex health condition. Medication can be enormously helpful in eliminating physical craving, but you must still address the underlying reasons that cause you to drink. Here’s where the real work begins and it’s a wonderful opportunity to turn your life around. But if you expect to find salvation in a prescription, you may be sorely disappointed.
Some people shy away from visiting their doctors and simply order anti-craving medication from online pharmacies. You must be careful because many of these drugs are powerful and may have serious side effects or can interact with medications you are currently taking. In addition, you can’t be sure of the reputation of the pharmacy from whom you are ordering or the quality of the product they send you. It is prudent to undergo a program with the care and counseling of a qualified health care provider and to purchase medication from a trusted source.
Be prepared: your physicians may reject any proposal to prescribe medication. Remember that the average doctor receives approximately 12 hours of training in addiction treatment during his or her medical schooling; some are poorly prepared to deal with this difficult health concern. You must be proactive and find someone to help you. If your doctor turns you away, insist on a referral and do not give up until you find someone who is willing to work with you
Cravings come out of the blue, sometimes months or years later. Be prepared for them. Moments of stress, hunger or sleep deprivation may contribute to these urges. Have a strategy in place, a friend to call, or some plan of action when and if a craving hits
Incredibly, some people find their plans for new found sobriety are sabotaged right at home. Partners may fear losing a drinking buddy or control over a mate. Resentment may crop up. Relationships change. Be prepared for this beforehand and address it if you think it will be a problem. You will need support from all sectors during this very important time.

Say No To Excess Alchohol (Use Anti-Craving Medicines) : Part 1

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A new family of drugs is now available to treat alcoholism, just as physicians began treating depression with medication a decades ago[1]. Several anti-craving meds have been introduced and will radically change the way physicians help their patients. These drugs typically work on mid-brain receptors to ease withdrawal, blunt craving and dull the euphoria associated drinking. When used in conjunction with a comprehensive program of counseling, nutrition and support, they can be very effective. Some medications, like Naltrexone and Acamprosate, are approved by the FDA for this purpose. Others, like Topiramate, Rimonabant, or Baclofen are prescribed off label to help patients begin a program of alcohol cessation.
Do an honest self assessment about your drinking. Consider using the “C.A.G.E.” assessment. C: Have you ever felt you needed to cut down on your drinking? A: Have people annoyed you by criticizing your drinking? G: Have you ever felt guilty about drinking? E: Have you ever felt you needed a drink first thing in the morning (eye opener) to steady your nerves or to get rid of a hangover? If you answer yes to any of these questions, you probably need to seek help. Other signs of alcohol addiction include the inability to control how much you drink, withdrawal symptoms such as shakiness or anxiety if you stop drinking, sleep disruptions and physical symptoms such as fluid buildup, poor wound healing and gastrointestinal bleeding. The sooner you seek treatment, the better.
Research anti-craving medications because this approach is relatively new to many health care providers. Ultimately, you will want to work in partnership with your clinician in determining which medicine is most appropriate based on your health status, possible drug interactions, side effects, and other factors. Review as much information as possible about each of the anti-craving medications you can find, including clinical studies regarding their use and efficacy. Search online magazine and newspaper articles about their use, effectiveness and side effects. Do not base your opinion on the experience of other individuals, but collect as much comprehensive information as you can before visiting your doctor. Depending on the physician you visit, you may be more knowledgeable about the specific medication in which you are interested.
Make your appointment. Treatment for alcoholism does not require a highly skilled addiction specialist, but it is helpful to have a trusted health care provider who will listen to you. Seek someone you are comfortable with and whom you believe will respect your wishes. Patients often prefer to see a doctor outside of their normal caregiver. If this is the case, you may wish to consider visiting a mental health practitioner because they are often more comfortable prescribing medications to treat addiction. Whomever you see, be honest about your health situation, but understand the information–unless otherwise indicated–will be noted in your medical records.
Expect a knowledgeable doctor to run any number of tests, which may include a physical exam, a GGT (blood chemistry test to evaluate liver function), a CDT (a more sensitive blood test) and an evaluation for signs of complications due to alcohol consumption such as abdominal pain, heart problems, withdrawal or cirrhosis.
Be prepared to receive a referral for individual counseling or group-based meetings to be done in conjunction with therapy. Support is a critical part of the process. If you are unwilling to visit a local therapist or a 12-step group, consider visiting an online alcohol recovery forum, where you may participate anonymously. If possible, find someone who is starting a similar regimen and “buddy up”. This can be enormously therapeutic.
Consider accepting a short term prescription for a benzodiazepine such as Valium or Ativan if your doctor feels it is necessary. It is often helpful for late stage alcoholics to manage withdrawal symptoms. Your physician should first screen for the presence of other medications to avoid interactions such as over-sedation.
Follow the directions for your medications carefully and report any disturbing side effects at once. If you are overly sensitive to the medication, you may have to reduce the initial dosing to minimize unwanted effects. Read the material provided with your medicine for all potential side effects, even those your physician may not have mentioned. Monitor your health closely.
Try and create as successful an environment as possible. Remove all alcohol from your house. Encourage the support of partners or others in the home and emphasize the importance of this endeavor if they are not already aware of it. If necessary, do not attend social functions early on if you feel they will provide too much temptation. Stay away from associates with whom you normally drink. Enroll in evening classes, join a volunteer group, or partake in other activities that will keep you busy. Many people report the “witching hours” between 5 and 8 p.m. to be the most difficult. If that is the case for you, try and change your schedule, at least early on, so you are preoccupied during those hours.
Consider medication as only *one part* of an important, multi-faceted therapy. At this time, you should also be focusing on restoring your body’s mental, emotional and physical health. If you do not exercise regularly, this is an excellent opportunity to begin, as you will occupy time once filled drinking, while you promote the release of endorphins and lift depression. Improve your diet by increasing whole grains, vegetables and fruits and reduce sugar, which will further curb your craving for alcohol. Drink lots of water. Begin a program of improved dietary supplementation, focusing on vitamins, minerals, amino acids and herbs that will help restore, rejuvenate and maintain a healthy, alcohol-free lifestyle. Save time each day for relaxation, positive visualization, self-hypnosis, and other helpful strategies to reprogram behavior. Focus on eliminating drinking triggers and look into the future to “see” the healthy individual you will become.

Having A Heartache : Express Your Emotional Pain

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We often feel sadness over occurrences in our lives that we have no control over. Perhaps a best friend moves away, or maybe we experience the loss of a family member. Not all of us know how to express our feelings. Some cannot talk it over with parents, and some just think that hurting themselves is the only way to express their inner feelings.
First of all, know that crying is not a sign of weakness. Let out your tears! Bottled up emotions lead to more emotional breakdowns in the future. Crying not only cleanses the eyes, but washes the pain away. (Note: This is a metaphor. Crying does not literally wash away pain.)
Keep a diary. Each time you’re feeling down in the dumps, write a journal entry about it. When you’re feeling better you can look back at the entry and think, “How did this pain make me stronger?”.
Find someone to talk to. Find someone you trust. If you feel comfortable talking to them and if they can listen to you, understand your pain, then they are the right person for you to turn to.
Try to get to the source of the sadness. Is it due to a person in particular? If so, avoid that person. If one person is the source for your depression, then it’s not worth talking to him or her.
Work through the reasons that provoke your crying. If you are jealous of someone, try to figure out if this reaction is really worth feeling sad about.
Allow time to grieve. If sadness is due to the death of someone close to you, then it may take a bit longer for the sadness to pass. It is healthy to feel sad at the loss of a loved one so understand this and take one day at a time. Crying is perfectly normal at a time like this. Talking about it and expressing your feelings will also help.
Use art to free some of your pain. It can be a poem, a song, short story, or a painting that describes what you’re feeling and going through.
Muster the courage to feel what actually exists inside you; the courage of an open heart.
If your sadness is related to a family member passing away, do not forget them, but keep memories of them [pictures, home videos, favorite songs, etc.].
Is it because of love? Somebody you feel is attractive but you don’t have enough courage to tell them that? Write Letters, e-mails, Texts and save them in drafts and read them every day.

Life Can Sometimes Suck : Change It Today

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Sometimes, even if you’re playing a fair game, life deals your hand from the bottom of the deck. There’s no reason for it, necessarily, but it happens. For some people, “Life sucks” might be no date for the prom, or a big zit on the nose—just in time for that big date. For others, it might be getting a phone call as you and the children are decorating the Christmas tree, saying your spouse was just killed in an accident. You may suffer from chronic depression, such that even though you know how good things look on the surface (to others), life couldn’t be worse for you.
Examine your situation. What’s causing the pain you are feeling? This is going to be key to working your way back to positive territory.
If it’s situational—for example, you got fired, it’s pouring down rain, and on the way home with all your office belongings in the car, that little spare tire that you’ve been running on gives up the ghost, leaving you stranded on the other side of town—you’re going to need a different set of “positive” tools than if you have been diagnosed with a melanoma.
External factors can be dealt with by taking positive steps to repair or at least address the root problem as best as you can. Whatever the primary cause of the suck age that cause must be addressed first. You may or may not be able to solve the problem, per se, but at least knowing you’re taking positive steps forward is one less weight to have to carry, and it will help you improve your outlook. It will not be easy, of course, or we wouldn’t be calling this “sucking.”
If it’s physical or mental—maybe you’re bipolar, or suffer chronic depression—you must balance any attempt at “being positive” with an understanding that the reality is, it’s going to be an ongoing battle for your own survival. Because depression will undermine even the strongest of wills, you will need help to maintain—or at least be reminded of—a positive outlook. Counseling, psychotherapy, and the right combination of medication will play a crucial role in helping to keep you from sinking into that very dark place that is the essence of depression. Be patient, but don’t look for miracles. It may be that you will need the help of professionals throughout your life to maintain a generally even keel.
Don’t give in. When you’re in the middle of a suck vortex, those words will have little meaning, because everything you know in your bones to be true is telling you that giving in would be so easy to do.
People will tell you “just get over it,” or “get a grip.” They know—and you know—that if you were to look objectively at the sum of your life, that it’s not as bad as it feels; there are many people whose lives are measurably worse than yours. So what! Their lives, no matter how terrible, are not your life, and your situation is unique to you.
Don’t try to “get over it.” If one could “will away” depression, there would be no need of doctors or drugs. What you can do is understand why you feel like you do, and explain to your would-be counselors that you wish it were that easy, and that you appreciate their concern. Don’t push them away—at the very least, you can be positive that they are there for you, however clumsy and unaware their platitudes may be. Who knows, their bumbling efforts may even provide some amusement or distraction!
Take care of your body and soul. Given that you are probably an emotional wreck in a world of sewage, swimming in the debris of whatever damage the suck age has wrought, this is not the time to become a world champion hotdog eater, consumer of tubs of ice cream, or finding the bottom of the bottle of Jack. Treat yourself well, even though you feel like hell. How, you ask? Here are some ideas:
Give your pet some love. They know you’re not their normal human, but the beauty of pets is unconditional, unquestioning love. Be playful with them, find a simple game that amuses both of you (the fake ball-throw is always a canine favorite), and let yourself forget your troubles for 5 or 10 minutes. It won’t solve your problem, but it will lighten the load.
Eat as well as you possibly can. Even if you have very little money, make it a point to eat a more balanced, healthier diet than you do when all is well. Lots of greens and colored vegetables, and a variety of fruit and nuts, are all super healthy for you, and they’re much less expensive than meats, cheeses, and processed foods! Their nutritional value will elevate your body, and knowing you are treating yourself will elevate your mind.
Also, look for foods rich in vitamin B12 and Omega-3. These include dark green vegetables, nuts, soybeans, and fatty fish such as salmon, tuna, and mackerel.
Cut back on the caffeine drinks. You don’t need to quit, but cutting back will help reduce chemically induced anxiety and stress, and smooth any recovery time.
Exercise your body. It may be a sport you enjoy, yoga, cross training, or even a simple walk in the park. But keeping your body active will help your outlook.
Throw yourself into a hobby you enjoy. Whether its art, photography, music appreciation, or building a ship in a bottle, focusing on something other than the suck factor will give your mind some time off for good behavior.
Join a community that you’re not already part of. It could be a support group for whatever you’re going through, or a group of people that share your love of Lord of the Rings, or a charity such as Habitat for Humanity. You may find solace and purpose in ways you never imagined.
Do not crawl into a hole and disappear. Your friends and loved ones probably know your life sucks. They may or may not be able to help you directly, but they can give you emotional and moral support.
Sleep. You don’t need to be told this. Your body is probably begging you for it when you are in the middle of hard times. You may actually be drawn to sleep all day. While that might feel good at the moment, it only puts off the inevitable, so try to maintain good sleeping habits. Maintain a consistent sleep schedule, but allow yourself some leeway. If you sleep fitfully for half the night, then finally fall asleep at 4am, don’t get up at 6:30 unless you absolutely must. Let your body get about 8 hours for the best results.
Seek help immediately. Yes, life sucks. Sometimes, it can become overwhelming to the point where you figure that swallowing a bottle of pills, or a 9 mm, will be preferable to another day of pain. If those thoughts start to invade your senses, deal with them as if your life depended on it—because it does.
If you’re just starting to have those thoughts, speak to your physician or your therapist. They may prescribe something to help steer you back to the center, emotionally. It may be the act of talking about it is therapeutic enough, but don’t assume that. Leave that call to the professionals.
If you’re at a more advanced stage, thinking about last meals, what to write, how you’ll do it, and if anybody will even care (or that this will “teach them a lesson”), stop whatever you’re doing. Pick up a phone. Dial 1-800-273-8255, and tell them what’s on your mind. If your urge is not quite immediate, go to Google, and enter “suicide hotline.” The results should include the number above, plus local resources that can help, no matter what the cause.
Note that if you’re in the end stage of a terminal illness, the above suggestion may be not be the best course. Some countries, and one State in the United States, permit physician-assisted suicide—its purpose to provide for a quiet, controlled departure from this world.